Sometimes you just know that you really HAVE TO do something. „I need to travel by myself, I cannot say for how long, I just know that I have to do this!“
Nothing could have stopped me.
I left my hometown Hamburg not knowing when I would come back. I gave up my job, my apartment and my relationship to travel to Australia. No strings attached. Ready for adventure and ready to find happiness.
After the first excitements of making new experiences and meet a lot of people I just felt miserable. What was I doing?
I had imagined to feel free as a bee but I had never felt more lost!
Being a victim of your own dreams sucks. Especially when you worked quite hard to fulfill them and always were convinced that traveling would teach you what you really want in life.
What the hell was wrong with me? Anybody I talked to said that they would give anything to be in my position. Did I not have the right attitude?
I missed my family and friends. I couldn’t stand the thought to be so far away from them. I wanted to know what my life would be like back home. After three more months of traveling and working on my attitude I finally accepted that I truly wanted to go home.
At the airport in Germany I fell into my fathers arms. He was happy that I made it home safely. I just felt ashamed.To me it wa s a huge embarrassment that I didn’t find happiness or an answer to the question what I wanted to do with my life!
Back then I didn’t realize that I actually did find out what I needed to be happy: Being together with the people I love.
About the author
Hannah Herman is a psychologist and writer who loves to experience life and share her insights. Her blog www.liebeskummerinhamburg.de provides stories, distractions and answers to questions everybody has at least once in his life – not only if lovesick!